Dancing At Midnight
Book 2 in the
Lady Arabella Blydon has beauty and a brain, and she’s tired of men who can see only one without the other.
When a suitor tells Arabella he’s willing to overlook her appalling bluestocking tendencies on account of her looks and fortune, she decides to take a break from the Marriage Mart. During an extended stay in the country, she never expects to meet Lord John Blackwood, a wounded war hero who intrigues her like no other man.
Lord John has lived through the worst horrors of war… but nothing could have been as terrifying to his tormented heart as Lady Arabella. She is intoxicating, infuriating… and she makes him want to live again. Suddenly he’s writing bad poetry and climbing trees in the pitch-dark night… just so he can dance with her as the clock strikes midnight. And even though he knows he can never be the sort of man she deserves, he can’t help wanting her. But when the harsh light of day replaces the magic of midnight, can this tormented soul learn to love again?
"I'm not a hero," he said darkly. "You'd do well to remember that."
Inside the Story
- Dancing At Midnight had the working title of Spellbound. I was never particularly attached to this title, though, and in fact had only chosen it because it went along with Splendid.
- Of all my books, Dancing At Midnight required the most extensive revisions. In the original version, John's main reason for pushing Belle away was societal strictures, not his feelings of remorse over what happened during the war. During the revision process, I learned that nothing is more extensive than changing a character's motivation. I had to go through the book and reexamine every word and thought of John's. It was a difficult and time-consuming job, but I think the book benefited greatly.
- I will confess that unlike Belle, I have not read the complete works of Shakespeare. And I'm pretty sure I never will. I did, however, play the role of Luciana in my high school production of A Comedy of Errors. This is not to be eclipsed, however, by my pivotal performance as "woman of Verona #3" in Kiss Me, Kate, which is based on The Taming of the Shrew.
For my father, who never forgot to tell me how proud he is of me. I am proud of you, too!
And for Paul, even though he seemed to think the story could be improved by moving the whole thing to the rainforest.
Enjoy an Excerpt
Dancing At Midnight
Oxfordshire, England, 1816
If, one by one, you weeded all the world—
Arabella Blydon blinked.
That couldn’t be right. There weren’t any gardeners in The Winter’s Tale. She held the book farther from her face. Even worse. She pulled the book closer. The type on the page slowly focused.
If, one by one, you wedded all the world–
Belle sighed and leaned back against a tree trunk. That made a lot more sense. She blinked a couple of times, willing her bright blue eyes to focus on the words that lay before her on the page. They refused to obey, but she wasn’t about to read with her face pressed into the book, so she squinted and plodded on.
A chilly wind passed across her, and she glanced up at the overcast sky. It was going to rain, no doubt about that, but if she were lucky she’d have another hour until the first drops fell. That was all the time she’d need to finish The Winter’s Tale. And that would mark the end of her Grand Shakespearean Quest, the semi-academic endeavor that had occupied her spare time for nearly six months. She’d started with All’s Well that Ends Well and proceeded alphabetically, wending her way through Hamlet, all the Henrys, Romeo and Juliet, and a host of other plays she hadn’t even heard of before. She wasn’t exactly sure why she’d done it, other than the simple fact that she liked to read, but now that the end was in sight she was damned if she was going to let a few raindrops get in her way.
Belle gulped and looked this way and that, as if afraid that someone had heard her cursing in her thoughts. She glanced back up at the sky. A beam of sunshine burst through a tiny hole in the clouds. Belle took that as a sign of optimism and plucked a chicken sandwich out of her picnic lunch. She bit into it daintily and picked up her book again. The words seemed just as unwilling to focus as before, so she moved the volume closer to her face, which she contorted in a number of different ways until she found a squint that worked.
“There you go, Arabella,” she muttered. “If you can just hold this exceedingly uncomfortable pose for another forty-five minutes, you should have no problem with the rest of your book.”
“Of course your facial muscles will probably be quite sore by that point,” drawled a voice from behind her.
Belle dropped her book and whirled her head around. Standing a few yards away was a gentleman in casual yet elegant attire. His hair was a rich chocolate brown and his eyes were the exact same color. He was looking down at her and her solitary picnic with an amused expression, and his lazy pose indicated that he’d been watching her for some time. Belle glared at him, unable to think of anything to say but hoping that her scornful gaze would put him in his place.
It didn’t seem to do the trick. In fact, he looked even more amused by her. “You need spectacles,” he said simply.
“And you are trespassing,” she retorted.
“Am I? I rather thought you were trespassing.”
“I most certainly am not. This land belongs to the duke of Ashbourne. My cousin,” she added for emphasis.
The stranger pointed to the west. “That land belongs to the duke of Ashbourne. The boundary is that ridge over there. And thus you are trespassing.”
Belle narrowed her eyes and pushed a lock of her wavy blond hair behind her ear. “Are you certain?”
“Absolutely. I realize that Ashbourne’s land holdings are vast, but they are not infinite.”
She shifted uncomfortably. “Oh. Well, in that case, I am very sorry for disturbing you,” she said in a haughty voice. “I’ll just see to my horse and be off.”
“Don’t be silly,” he said quickly. “I hope I am not so ill-tempered that I cannot allow a lady to read under one of my trees. By all means, stay as long as you like.”
Belle considered leaving anyway, but comfort won out over pride. “Thank you. I’ve been here for several hours and am quite ensconced.”
“So I see.” He smiled, but it was a small one, and Belle got the impression that he was not a man who smiled often. “Perhaps,” he said, “since you will be spending the rest of the day on my land, you might introduce yourself.”
Belle hesitated, unable to discern whether he was being condescending or polite. “I’m sorry. I am Lady Arabella Blydon.”
“Pleased to meet you, my lady. And I am Lord John Blackwood.”
“How do you do?”
“Very well, but you still need spectacles.”
Belle felt her spine stiffen. Emma and Alex had been urging her to get her eyes examined for the last month, but they were, after all, family. This Lord John Blackwood person was a perfect stranger and certainly had no right to offer her such a suggestion. “You can be sure I will take your advice under consideration,” she muttered, somewhat ungraciously.
John inclined his head, a wry smile touching his lips. “What are you reading?”
“The Winter’s Tale.” Belle sat back and waited for the usual condescending comments about women and reading.
“An excellent play, but not, I think, Shakespeare’s finest,” John commented. “I myself am partial to Coriolanus. It’s not very well-known, but I quite liked it. You might read that sometime.”
Belle forgot to be pleased that she had met a man who was actually encouraging her to read and said, “Thank you for the suggestion, but I’ve read it already.”
“I’m impressed,” John said. “Have you read Othello ?”
John searched his brain for the most obscure Shakespearean play he could think of. “What about The Passionate Pilgrim?”
“Not my favorite, but I plodded through it.” Belle tried but couldn’t stop the smile that was creeping across her face.
He chuckled. “My compliments, Lady Arabella. I don’t think I’ve ever even seen a copy of The Passionate Pilgrim.”
Belle grinned, graciously accepting the compliment as her previous antagonism toward the man melted away. “Won’t you join me for a few minutes?” she asked him, waving toward the empty expanse of blanket spread out beneath her. “I still have most of my picnic lunch, and I would be happy to share it with you.”
For a moment it looked as if he would accept. He opened his mouth to say something, then let out a tiny sigh and closed it. When he finally spoke, his voice was very stiff and formal and all he said was, “No, thank you.” He took a couple of steps away from her and turned his head so that he could stare out across the fields.
Belle cocked her head and was about to say something further when she noticed with surprise that he limped. She wondered if he’d been injured in the peninsular wars. An intriguing man, this Lord Blackwood. She wouldn’t have half minded spending an hour or so in his company. And, she had to admit, he was really quite handsome, with strong, even features, and a body which was lean and powerful in spite of his injured leg. His velvety brown eyes displayed obvious intelligence, but they also seemed hooded with pain and skepticism. Belle was starting to find him very mysterious, indeed.
“Are you certain?” she asked.
“Certain of what?” He didn’t turn around.
She bristled at his rudeness. “Certain that you don’t want to join me for lunch.”
That certainly got her attention. No one had ever before told her that he was quite certain he could do without her company.
Belle sat uncomfortably on her blanket, The Winter’s Tale lying limply in her lap. There didn’t seem to be anything she could say with his back half to her. And it would have been impolite to start reading again.
John suddenly turned around and cleared his throat.
“It was really too bad of you to tell me I need spectacles,” she said abruptly, mostly just to get something in before he could.
“I apologize. I’ve never been very good at polite conversation.”
“Perhaps you should converse more,” she retorted.
“Were you using a different tone of voice, my lady, one might suspect that you were flirting with me.”
She slammed A Winter’s Tale shut and stood. “I can see that you were not lying. You are not dreadful at merely polite conversation. You are lacking at all forms of it.”
He shrugged. “One of my many qualities.”
Her mouth fell open.
“I can see that you do not subscribe to my particular brand of humor.”
“I cannot imagine that many people do.”
There was a pause, and then a strange, sad light appeared in his eyes. It disappeared just as quickly, and the tone of his voice sharpened as he said, “Don’t come out here alone again.”
Belle shoved her belongings into her satchel. “Don’t worry. I shan’t trespass again.”
“I didn’t say you couldn’t come on my property. Just don’t do it alone.”
She had no idea how to reply to that so she merely said, “I’m going home.”
He glanced up at the sky. “Yes. You probably should. It’s going to rain soon. I’ve two or so miles to walk home myself. I shall certainly be drenched.”
She glanced around. “Didn’t you bring a horse?”
“Sometimes, my lady, it is better to use one’s feet.” He inclined his head. “It has been a pleasure.”
“For you, perhaps,” Belle muttered under her breath. She watched his back as he walked away from her. His limp was quite pronounced, but he moved much more quickly than she would have thought possible. She kept her gaze fixed on him until he disappeared over the horizon. As she mounted her mare, however, a compelling thought entered her head.
He limped. What kind of man was he that he preferred to walk?
John Blackwood listened to the hoofbeats of Lady Arabella’s mare as she cantered off. He sighed. He’d acted like an ass.
He sighed again, this one loud with sorrow and self-loathing and pure, simple irritation. Damn. He never knew what to say to women anymore.
Belle set off back to Westonbirt, the home of her relatives. Her American-born cousin Emma had married the duke of Ashbourne a few months earlier. The newlyweds preferred the privacy of country life to London and had resided at Westonbirt almost continuously since their wedding. Of course the season was over, so no one was in London anyway. Still, Belle had a feeling that Emma and her husband would probably avoid much of London’s social scene even when the next season was underway.
Belle sighed. She’d no doubt be back in London for the next season. Back at the marriage mart, looking for a husband. She was getting heartily sick of the entire process. She’d been through two seasons already and accumulated over a dozen proposals, but she’d rejected every one. Some of the men had been completely unsuitable, but most were decent sorts, well-connected and quite likeable. She just couldn’t seem to make herself accept a man she didn’t care deeply about. And now that she’d had a glimpse of how happy her cousin was, she knew that it would be very difficult to settle for anything less than her wildest dreams.
Belle spurred her horse into a canter as the rain began to thicken. It was almost three o’clock, and she knew that Emma would have tea ready for her when she returned. She’d been staying with Emma and her husband Alex for three weeks. A few months after Emma’s wedding, Belle’s parents had decided to take a holiday in Italy. Ned, their son, was back up at Oxford for his final year so he didn’t need any watching over, and Emma was safely married. That left only Belle, and since Emma was now a married lady she was a suitable chaperone, so Belle went off to stay with her cousin.
Belle couldn’t imagine a more pleasing arrangement. Emma was her best friend, and after all the mischief they’d gotten into together, it was quite amusing to have her as a chaperone.
Belle breathed a sigh of relief as she rode up a hill and Westonbirt rose over the horizon. The massive building was really quite graceful, with long, narrow columns of windows marching across the facade. Belle was already starting to think of it as home. She headed into the stables, handed her mare over to a groom, and made a mad dash for the house, laughing as she tried to dodge the raindrops which had started to fall at a furious rate. She stumbled up the front steps but before she could push open the heavy door, the butler opened it with a flourish.
“Thank you, Norwood,” she said. “You must have been watching for me.”
Norwood inclined his head.
“Norwood, has Belle returned yet?”
The feminine voice floated through the air, and Belle heard her cousin’s footsteps clattering along the floor of the hallway that led to the foyer.
“It’s starting to get quite wet out there.” Emma turned the corner into the foyer. “Oh good! You’re back.”
“A little wet, but none the worse for the wear,” Belle said cheerily.
“I told you it was going to rain.”
“Do you feel responsible for me now that you’re an old married matron?”
Emma made a face which told her exactly what she thought of that. “You look like a drowned rat,” she said plainly.
Belle made an equally unpleasant face. “I’ll change my clothes and come down for tea in a moment.”
“In Alex’s study,” Emma advised. “He’s joining us today.”
“Oh, good. I’ll be right down.”
Belle headed up the stairs and through the labyrinth of hallways which led to her room. She quickly peeled off her sodden riding habit, changed into a soft blue dress, and headed back downstairs. The door to Alex’s study was closed and she could hear giggling, so she wisely knocked before she entered. There was a moment of silence and then Emma called out, “Come in!”
Belle smiled to herself. She was learning more and more about this married love thing by the minute. Some chaperone Emma was turning out to be. She and Alex couldn’t manage to keep their hands off each other whenever they thought no one was looking. Belle’s smile grew wider. She wasn’t exactly sure about the particulars of making babies, but she had a feeling all this touching had something to do with why Emma was already pregnant. Belle pushed open the door and walked into Alex’s very large, very masculine study. “Good afternoon, Alex,” she said. “How has your day been?”
“Drier than yours, I understand,” he said, pouring some milk in his teacup and ignoring the tea entirely. “Your curls are still dripping.”
Belle looked down at her shoulders. The fabric of her dress was damp from her hair. She shrugged. “Oh well, nothing to do about it, I suppose.” She settled down on the sofa, and poured herself a cup of tea. “And how was your day, Emma?”
“Fairly uneventful. I’ve been going over some of the books and reports from some of our lands in Wales. It looks like there may be some sort of a problem. I’m thinking of heading out there to investigate.”
“You are not,” Alex growled.
“Oh really?” Emma countered.
“You aren’t going anywhere for another six months,” he added, glancing lovingly at his flame-haired, violet-eyed wife. “And probably not for another six after that.”
“If you think I’m going to lay abed until the baby comes, you’re mad in the head.” “And you have to learn who’s in charge here.”
“Well then, you–”
“Stop, stop,” Belle laughed. “Enough.” She shook her head. Two more stubborn people in this universe had yet to be found. They were perfect for each other. “Why don’t I tell you how my day went?”
Emma and Alex both turned their faces to her expectantly.
Belle took another sip of her tea, letting it warm her up. “I met a rather odd man, actually.”
“Oh, really?” Emma leaned forward.
Alex leaned back, his eyes glazing over with a bored expression.
“Yes. He lives near here. I think his land borders yours. His name is Lord John Blackwood. Do you know him?”
Alex shot forward. “Did you say John Blackwood?”
“It was Lord John Blackwood, I think. Why, do you know him? John Blackwood is probably a fairly common name.”
She nodded again.
“About my height, medium build?”
“I guess so. He wasn’t quite as broad in the shoulders as you are, but I think he was nearly as tall.”
“Did he limp?”
“Yes!” Belle exclaimed.
“John Blackwood. I’ll be damned,” Alex shook his head in disbelief. “And a lord, too. He must have been granted a title for military service.”
“He fought in the war with you?” Emma asked.
When Alex finally responded, his green eyes were far away. “Yes,” he said softly. “He commanded his own company, but we saw each other frequently. I always wondered what happened to him. Don’t know why I didn’t try to look him up. I suppose I was afraid I’d find out he was dead.”
That certainly caught Belle’s attention. “What do you mean?”
“It was strange,” Alex said slowly. “He was an excellent soldier. There was no one you could depend on more. He was absolutely selfless. Constantly putting himself in danger to save others.”
“Why is that strange?” Emma asked. “He sounds like quite an honorable man.”
Alex turned his head to the two ladies, his expression suddenly clear. “The strange thing was that for a man who seemed to have such disregard for his own well-being, he behaved quite remarkably when he was wounded.”
“What happened?” Belle asked anxiously.
“The surgeon said that he’d have to cut off his leg. And I must say, he was rather callous about it. John was still conscious at the time, and the leech didn’t even bother to tell him directly. He just turned to his assistant and said, ‘Bring me the saw.'”
Belle shuddered, the image of John Blackwood so ill-treated surprisingly painful.
“He went crazy,” Alex continued. “I’ve never seen anything like it. He grabbed the surgeon by his shirt and pulled him down until they were nose to nose. And considering the amount of blood he’d lost, his grip was remarkably strong. I was going to intervene, but when I heard the tone of his voice, I held back.”
“What did he say?” Belle asked, on the edge of her seat.
“I’ll never forget it. He said, ‘If you take my leg, as God is my witness, I will hunt you down and saw off yours.’ The doctor let him be. Said he’d leave him to die if that’s what he wanted.”
“But he didn’t die,” Belle said.
“No, he didn’t. But I’m sure that was the end of his fighting days. Which was probably all for the best. He was a superb soldier, but I always got the idea that he abhorred violence.”
“How odd,” Emma murmured.
“Yes, well, he was an interesting man. I quite liked him. Had an excellent sense of humor when he chose to exhibit it. But he was more often than not the silent type. And he had the quite the strictest sense of honor I have ever experienced.”
“Really, Alex,” Emma teased. “No one could be more honorable than you.”
“Ah, my lovely, loyal wife.” Alex leaned forward and dropped a kiss on Emma’s forehead.
Belle slumped back in her seat. She wanted to hear more about John Blackwood, but there didn’t seem any polite way to ask Alex to say more about him. It rather irritated her to admit it, but she couldn’t deny that she was incredibly interested in the unusual man.
Belle had always been very practical, very pragmatic, and the one thing she had always refused to do was deceive herself. John Blackwood had intrigued her this afternoon, but now that she knew a bit of his history, she was fascinated. Every little thing about him, from the quirk of his brow to the way the wind ruffled his slightly wavy hair suddenly took on new meaning. And his insistence upon walking made much more sense. After fighting so fiercely to save his leg, it was only natural that he’d want to use it. He struck her as a man of principles. A man you could trust, depend upon. A man whose passions ran deep.
Belle was so surprised by the turn of her thoughts, she actually jerked her head back a little. Emma noticed her movement and inquired, “Are you all right, Belle?”
“What? Oh, just a little headache. More like a twinge, actually. It’s gone now.”
“It’s probably from all my reading,” Belle continued, even though Emma seemed perfectly willing to let the subject drop. “I have to try very hard to make the words focus these days. I think that perhaps I ought to have my eyes examined.”
If Emma was surprised by her cousin’s sudden admission that her eyesight was not quite what it should be, she made no mention of it. “Excellent. There is a very good doctor in the village. We’ll see what he can do.” Belle smiled and picked up her tea. It was getting cold.
And then Emma said a marvelous thing.
“You know what we ought to do,” the duchess said to her husband. “We ought to invite this John Blake person–”
“John Blackwood,” Belle interjected quickly.
“Sorry, this John Blackwood person over for supper. With Belle here we’ll be evenly matched and we won’t have to go out hunting for an extra woman.”
Alex put down his glass. “An excellent idea, my love. I think I’d rather like to renew our friendship.”
“That settles it, then,” Emma said matter-of-factly. “Shall I send him a note or would you rather go ’round yourself to invite him in person?”
“I think I’ll go. I’m eager to see him again, and besides, it would be rude of me not to considering the fact that he saved my life.”
Emma paled. “What?”
One corner of Alex’s lips tugged upwards in a sheepish smile. “Just once, my love, and there’s no point in getting upset over it now.”
The look that the couple shared at that moment was so tender that it was almost painful for Belle to look at them. Excusing herself quietly, she slipped out of the study and headed upstairs to her room where the last few pages of The Winter’s Tale awaited her.
John Blackwood had saved Alex’s life? She could scarcely fathom it. It seemed that there was more to their new neighbor than his somewhat churlish exterior.
John Blackwood had secrets. Belle was sure of it. She’d wager that his life story put Shakespeare to shame. All she had to do was a little investigating. This excursion to the country might prove more exciting than she’d anticipated.
Of course, she wasn’t going to be able to uncover any of his secrets until she befriended him. And he’d made it rather clear that he didn’t much like her.
It was damned irritating, that.